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Friday, January 2, 2015 11:53 AM
Bye 2014, HI 2015



Time Flies............


and 2014 u sucks. I really welcome 2015!


This year...


I lost my most beloved dog Lucky Lye

but I gained back my long lost sister. We finally patched things up and we are speaking to each other again.


I really believed in 老天爷

当他收回在你生命里最重要的莫样东西时他会在你的生命里给你另外一种东西

Whenever my life is too perfect, I tend to get scared easily. Cause nothing last forever. 幸福总是短暂的


I dun wan to fall down right to the bottom when I am at the peak of my life.


Thats what I always believed. 

 

Anyway... we need to be surround with positive energy so that we ourselves also heng heng ah!



Tuesday, May 7, 2013 2:22 AM
IRONIC ENOUGH?


2.08am.
its been so long that i wrote an entry.
world happening too fast,
we living too fast,
youth running too fast,
men lied too many times,
love dying too fast.

is it always true that the person you marry aint gonna be the one that you loved the most?
i always asked myself, do i wish to get married?
I used to. At the age of 21. But now if you asked me, i will say no, "I dont wished to marry now."

Men and Women.
I dont know who ever the hell created us. U fucking asshole. why must you made 2 different living creature differently yet wanting them to fall in love?
it is so so difficult to find THE RIGHT ONE.

we women have too many things we cant accept in men shortcomings. Or rather in the way they handle things or how they see things from us.

Men, they may feel that there is nothing wrong in whatever they do but yet why women cant accept it.

So ironic.
I wonder why the hell are we living for.
 why must people compromised each other every single day, why must we always considered others feeling regarding the things we say or do, why cant we just follow whats in our hearts and just lived every day like we want it to? why must we put up on a brave front and say "everything is okay." where by EVERYTHING IS NOT OKAY! why must we treat our friends/ family members/ colleagues/ lovers/ the way they want us to treat them? why cant we be honest to ourselves and towards them? why must I PRETEND TO LIKE YOU WHEN IM NOT LIKING YOU AND I HATE YOU? why must i accept my lover's ex-gfs/ bfs when they are still contacting each other and they say we ARE JUST ONLY FRIENDS! why must we do this why must we do that. 

JUST FUCK OFF.
seriously. Life is a bitch already and we seriously need to get a FUCKING LIFE.


Friday, January 4, 2013 8:06 PM
201314


20 1314


thats the date for today.
Its been a year. Time really flies.

my 2013 new year resolution will be:

- A Korea trip
- Starting of Niu Nails home-base business
- more saving
- Shed off 8 kg

yes. i really hope i could attain all. Last year resolution, I achieved 2 out of 3. The 2 i achieved was I went to obtain my nails diploma and I went to Japan!

2012 has been quite a wonderful year for me. The only bad thing was I lost ah gong. This year Chinese new year will be a quiet one for me. I definitely will miss Ah Gong. especially when i see the mahjong in my house.

Well, lets hope 2013 will be a nice year for me too! 

till then, 
XOXO.




Tuesday, March 27, 2012 6:28 PM


Its been a long time since i blogged. This post is dedicated to my dearest ah gong. Everything happened too fast. I still could not accept it. Ah gong... would you please come back?



Mr Ong Bee Yam, is not my natural ah gong. He is my maternal step-grandfather. and he himself had his OWN family. In my 24 years I had no idea what my real ah gong looks like, thus i had already treated him as my real ah gong. When my mother just bore me, it was him who held my mum's hand and carried me out from the hospital. My mom dotes on him a lot. Ah gong always buy duck drumstick for me when I was little.

To me, he is really my lovable ah gong....
He met my grandmother when my mum was 12 years old. That was the year my real ah gong passed away. They were neighbors. My ah ma was frail all along, but my ah gong took care of her nonetheless. He left his own family for my ah ma. If i were his own family members till date i think i would hate him, hate him for leaving his own family behind and left for another women. To us, we would't have felt like wise. He took care of my mum since she was 12 years old and took care of ah ma until ah ma died. After ah ma died, he went to stay in Jalan Kayu as a care taker alone. He didnt went back to his own family. All his daughters and son didn't want him back too. Thats understandable. We felt hopeless as we could not ask ah gong to stay with us as my daddy didnt like him back then, until now still the same. Ah gong had no choice but to stay there alone. I felt for him as nobody took care of him, nobody cooked proper meal for him. The only chance I get to see him was on reunion dinner whereby mummy would ask him over for reunion dinner and sometimes get maid to cooked nicer food so when his colleague drove him to our house we could pass him the food.

I felt for ah gong LOVE to ah ma was there was once i rmb, he just changed his handphone and he wanted to put ah ma's photo as his wall paper. I was touched by his act. The love he care for ah ma and for us was indescribable.

The photo above was taken when he was in Yishun hospital. He stayed there for 22 days. Just before he was admitted, he called my mum and say in hokkien "Leng ah... i think im going to die.... There is something inside my stomach..." My mum ask ah gong not to worry and say she is going to visit him the next few days. His own family decide to operate on him to know what is the cause of it cux ah gong keeps complaining his stomach very pain. After being operated, doctor confirm it was stomach cancer. Ah gong had mild stroke last year and after the operation ah gong stroke came back and he was worse than before. Its was so heart-breaking seeing him lying on the bed and cant talk. he doesnt even had the energy to talk to us. All the times i visited him in the hospital he was lying unconscious. Some times he would open his eyes and nod. Soon after the operation the family transfered him to Dover Park Hospice. There was nothing they could do as they feel that ah gong was too old for operation and the cancer was already at its final stage.

Friday, 23 March 2012, that particular day i was feeling very tired... i dunnoe why thus i decided to ask my boss to let me have a half day leave. I thought of going home to rest. After i applied leave in the morning, ard 11am baba msg me saying she is going to visit ah gong now as ah gong condition was de-proving. I was very worried. I decided to head down to have a look at ah gong. when i reached, the doctor told the family that they are moving ah gong to the single ward. mummy say ah gong is going to die... cux doctor already moved him to the single ward and asked the family to prepare for its worst. Its either today or tml. i reached ard 1pm and stayed with ah gong. The family was very nice, they let my family have some quiet time with ah gong. I could still rmb when mummy speak to ah gong she ask" gong gong, lian lian play mahjong with you you want a not?" my ah gong blinked his eyes so hard. i could not forget that scene. We just played mj during Chinese new year. within 2 months this had to happened. that will be the last time i played with ah gong. =( baba left around 2pm as she need to teach tuition in the evening. Me and my mummy and ah yi decided to stay as we were waiting for my uncle to come to see ah gong and we could leave together. Mummy say jiu jiu will come ard 3 plus. So we sat there chatting. Suddenly, ah gong big daughter urged us to go into the room as ah gong was having difficulties in breathing. Yes...... i witness ah gong departure. it was such a scene i would not forget. every night when i close my eyes i would still rmb.....

The funeral was done in the Christian way.. as the family was christian. We attended the funeral like any other relatives and friends. We were not his immediate family after all. The funeral was held 5 days. Ah gong was being burial in CCK cemetery.

Although ah gong had left us, I really miss him so much. Next year reunion dinner we wont have ah gong any more. I still rmb this year after reunion dinner I held him down as his colleague came to drive him back to jalan kayu. back then he was already holding a walking stick. Then i realized ah gong was old already as he needed a walking stick to assist him. That reunion night, he complained his stomach was very pain so he wanted to go back early to rest. This year was the first year I had given him ang bao as I only started my full time job last year. He was so happy when he received my ang bao. I wanted to give him more....but now i cant anymore... and every time he saw me he would ask me when am i getting married? I would love to let him see me getting married...but now... we cant...

ah gong i really missed you. I hope you are in heaven with ah ma okay? No matter what sins you had committed.. wad other stupid relatives gossip about you and what they think. In my heart you are the best ah gong i had. You will go to heaven and they will rot in hell. Ah gong rest in peace and may we really meet again like what the bible says.

AH GONG I LOVE YOU =)


Tuesday, February 7, 2012 2:05 PM


been half a year i left my blog.
out of a sudden wanna write this post
is it so difficult to find some one who u love is being honest and not a FLIRT?
my guy friend told me. guys are all 'fan jian' but theres only one who they love a lot.
why must like that? why?
u dun like my temper i can change for u
u dun like my jealousy i can change.
but wad ever promise u promised me have u done?
why is it everytime i thought i am ready to be with u for the rest of my life i always tend to see somethings that are not meant to be.

this relationship is difficult. i always wonder to myself are we meant to be? are we suitable for each other? i dont know. u always told me u hold on is because u dun wan to regret this. then why am i holding on? I dunnoe whats is there to hold on anymore if this love there isnt any

TRUST; FAITH; HONESTY

we need to be honest with each other. but being honest with each other do u guys really noe ur partner darkest secret? Lookingi at ur partner's handphone is it call invading of ur partner privacy? Or u shld say just look wadever u want. I got nothing to hide.

but u didnt give me the secure or assurance in this relationship. Whenever i felt that u had assured me enough, i saw things i shouldnt see. y u want to do this to me? =(
sometimes i feel like an idiot; still planning this and tt.

This FEBRUARY U SUCKS.<>


Saturday, June 4, 2011 5:24 PM


blog dying;
emo;
listen to one song;
what are words;
fuck touching !
=(



QUEEN S

With love♥





im selfish;
im mean;
im jealousy;
im boring;
im SERENE;
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